Well, this is not really about The Sun Also Rises, my second favorite Hemingway novel, rather a quote I read today in the Smithsonian really got me thinking.
In my working life I have never felt compelled to filter me or fabricate a work version of myself that doesn’t let people glimpse the real me. Sure I may not share my greatest failures and fears freely, but I
do did share my joys, passions and love with anyone within range to be a part of it.
I have alluded enough to my struggles in past posts, I don’t wish to go further on that. This quote though, I feel this quote (only part of this quote was in the magazine) –
“If people bring so much courage to this world the world has to kill them to break them, so of course it kills them. The world breaks every one and afterward many are strong at the broken places. But those that will not break it kills. It kills the very good and the very gentle and the very brave impartially. If you are none of these you can be sure it will kill you too but there will be no special hurry.”
Like most literary greats Mr. Hemingway cuts to the bone of a truth. There are people out there that hurt and destroy because they can and because they derive some sick pleasure out of it, as if inflicting on others what has scarred them has some great purpose other than showing they are shitty people.
It is not as if there were not cracks and breaks before, some that mended better than others, but I had a rose colored glasses community view of the workplace. Someone decided to take those glasses and smash them while on my face. I could almost thank them. It has caused me to reevaluate many things related to the job and the trajectory of my life. I still have the cast on, the bruises are a dark purple, but I am healing and growing. So, thank you anonymous asshole.